Life...

Am I really happy?
-shed some tears of frustration tonight
-have learned that I would not be a good roomate. Too much ocd
-thought that my weight was finally stabilized. Learned today that I have dropped 5 more pounds. (ugh) The doctors keep telling me that I am perfectly healthy but I can not seem to keep weight on. It is very frustrating. I want/need a new wardrobe.
-must be stress. thought that would end since we closed on the house
-I hate sundays. nothing fits so my day begins crappy
-would love to get to church on time
-trying to embrace my new calling but having a very hard time with it
-am I really happy? I seem to keep asking myself this question
-very happy with the Rebels last night. great win over BYU
-wish that I didn't take my frustration out on my husband
-asked myself the question a few times this week, am I a good mom; wife; daughter; granddaughter
-went to the book store to find a good self help read. didn't find one; Emerson was not having it.
-I need a break from everyday life
-feel like a single mom sometimes. hate to ask for help; but have been working on that lately